Meat Eating Way of Life

I found something better than anything I’ve ever known or experienced.

I found myself.

I got my period yesterday afternoon. It came just before I was going to get into the water for the second dive of the day. I decided to dive without a wetsuit. Just fins, mask, snorkel and bathers. I got down to the water's edge when I realised... this water doesn’t resonate with what I want right now. Luckily, I am in touch with my mind and body. I know what I want and while that may fluctuate, change, ebb and flow with the rhythms of my hormonal cycles, I do know what I want.

I decided to tan on the dock instead. I met some friends, I swam, I felt lazy and alive at the same time. I went back to the school, went home, ate some meat and then Taylor came over to grab his watch. I got a ride back to the school with him so I could pick up my watch, and all went well. I walked back to the school, barefoot.

It felt so right. Who needs shoes when I’ve got my two feet... we’re getting somewhere now. Got home, and had a jam session with John who lives on the property. We sang songs of Adonai, munched on some frozen jackfruit and cried a bit. God is so good. I ate a pound of ground beef before going to bed + three eggs. Yum.

This morning, I woke up feeling hungry. Like, ferociously hungry.  Opening up my computadora, I scanned Google and Tripadvisor for every restaurant in the area. Sugar and carbs. I wanted dulce. I wanted key lime pie, I wanted cheesecake. Sweet tooth arise.

Casa Marimba, Cacique next door, Paradiso. So many options. If only they delivered. They weren’t open for another hour... what a pity. Ugh, I need it now. I had plans of going to Paradiso, I scoured each place's menu and chose Paradiso for their breakfast burrito and smoothie bowl with granola. I would get both of those and then maybe take home two sweets. A lemon pie and cheesecake perhaps. Yum, that sounds right to me.

I moseyed on over to my kitchen and popped some meat into the air fryer while waiting. Then I had a thought... "How about let’s eat some meat and I'll see if I want to go anywhere afterwards". Great idea! So smart. The meat was ready, I poured the fat and juices into the saucepan, turned on the heat and added three eggs. I sat down and started eating the meat--right away I felt some epiphany.

This is enough.

This is the healer.

I am not looking for more now.

Why?

I added the three eggs to my plate of asada ribs and I munched with a feeling of presence and calm. I feel connected. I feel satiated. I feel so full. Almost light. Ready for a walk or a run. I love what meat does to me.

Could it be that meat and yoga are a stepping stone to my greatest self? I think yes.